A Day before Days

~Dream,

Be never sleep-less~

When I look into my heart, all the selfish desires and feelings that torment me, endlessly without pause, then I look further, I see my soul, where the Holy Spirit resides, He says call on me, that's what I was sent for, to help you battle that selfish pride, you don't have to sell me to get that connection through, just tell them about us, what we do together, how our relationship works, that this love is unending and true, it's not just for you, I go where conviction kills, I go where belief strikes like a thunder bolt, and then the battle, that forward journey starts anew, so just be honest as if you were speaking to a dear close friend, and then they will see, something sincere that they are missing from their lives, pure love.

I've grown closer and yet so distant, I look too far without seeing through my outstretched fingers. But I feel that love growing everyday inside of me, and I let it overflow.

My friend talked of a a coincidence that happened to our friend for three years in the past, so in good humor they called it a curse, and in good humor, our friend passed it on to the other friend, and by striking coincidence it happened to him for two years running in the past, and as we talked about relationships and life he felt that perhaps I should have this curse, all in good humor, and so passed it on to me as to where this weekend will show if by coincidence this will occur, although in good humor, my other other friend banished the curse in the name of Jesus Christ, where as the power of the Holy Spirit and a mixture of my complete obliviousness should prove that there is no coincidence, only that natural charisma that the other two friends exude in places full of people, and that I myself have no idea what I'm looking for, so have stopped altogether.

~Psalm 34~

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~God offends our mind to reveal our heart~

You were taught something that you knew was truth. It was written down this way, passed on verbally or through some precise optical maneuver, and then you held onto it believing it common knowledge. Then the iceberg surfaced and the ship was rocked. Your stable footing started to shake and your insides quivered in reluctance to accept.

The believers journey.

The unbelievers universe shattered into fragments that need a hand, not of their own or of physical acquiring, to patch together a brand new picture. That hand is beyond a quantified numeral that you would try to imagine. There is a softness in the touch, an unwavering kindness that overflows like an unrelenting river during the rains. There is a miraculous change, conviction, flowing convection of currents unyielding and completely encompassing. This is an unfailing love beyond comprehension. You can try to understand, you'll hurt your brain, but you can try.

Then the battle begins. The clash at old ways saloon versus the redeemed hero. It will always be there. This is a fight not won til the bittersweet end. But you won't be fighting alone. You have the redeemer, you have the redeemed, and you have a sword sharper than the finest laser particle calibrated microcaustic (portmanteau wins) edge.

Don't be afraid of failing because it is impossible now. You say you fall, but you never even hit the ground. Unconditional, such a hard word to take in.

I look and I see, and at the same time I was trying to figure out what was best for me, when I realized that this whim of having everything fit perfectly into His design was myself selfishly and forcefully trying to enact His plan all on my own. I said no and disregarded others feelings. I steered away from those He would of jumped head first into. I didn't listen. I tried to look too far ahead. That's past now, this is present, this is today. Take each day into consideration, with blessings upon your heart and love constantly outpouring. Do not tread so far into the future for what may happen today may drastically change tomorrow.

Words are powerful. If I were to recite the old adage of sticks and stones it would seem contrary, and I find it to be a powerful lie. Words are very powerful.

And lastly, I love you. I love you very much. I will always love you.