I am sad right now. I can't explain my sadness. It wells up inside of me, but my life is going good right now. I truly am blessed. I can rely on God for everything. Your Son, your Spirit, there is no I for we are together in this, along with everyone else who loves your Son.
I started school today, and I was one among two other guys in the class. The rest were girls. I say girl as I looked around and wrote notes at the same time. This is a history class, the stories of humanity. I know history is a boring subject to most, but I'm in the business of stories, and the human ones that people want to attach to, relate to, delve into to escape wherever they are or experience something they haven't experienced may once have happened somewhere else in some other time. More or likely it did. But I didn't see girls, my mind was too preoccupied with other things. My life has never felt more scheduled and less scheduled. I'll have my associates by the end of spring next year and from there only God knows. I only want God to know. I can only petition my Lord for His great grace in my life. All I know is that I want to stop feeling like this. I'll keep petitioning because He loves me and much more beyond.
I'll scream out something later, I'll write to her later as well, I'll be praying much before I do the latter and playing something loud while I do the first.
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